I haven't been filling out my entries lately. I haven't had a great desire to be on the internet. I have been hanging out with friends, making collages from magazine clippings to adorn the apartment walls, being active, reading and dreaming in technicolor. Pavorotti is singing his heart out now with U2. My joints are popping and cracking. I ate the last of my Ma's famed caramel corn this morning. The aftertaste of onion bagel lingers on my palatte. I need a part-time job. I made Kori a mixed tape for her new car last night and got to sleep around 3. I woke. I was groggy. I feel malnourished. I don't have money for fruits and veggies. I should apply for food stamps this week. I read some Emerson yesterday, some Chomsky the day before, more Chomsky before and then Twain before that. Rob is going to bring me a Chomsky pamphlet on the 9/11 dealy and then I want to finally read Michael Moore's "Stupid White Men" and then maybe "Brave New World". Hector, one of my Cool School kids, drew a picture of me yesterday. I have pencils for hands, so that is pretty cool, an extension in his eyes, I suppose. We are studying MLK this month and I drew an awesome poster of MLK on brown butcher paper and glued white paper to that where the kids get to write how they solve their problems in non-violent ways. Yesterday I was the tour guide for an MLK picture biography book with them. I am so glad to expose them to MLK and his ideas and life. Natalia kept saying "that's so sad" when we were looking at pictures of his assasination and funeral. Connecting with kids is what it's all about.

I like when Emerson says true friends are a "delicious torment" and a "masterpeice of nature". "I do then with my friends as I do with my books. I would have them where I can find them, but I seldom use them." I was thinking reading his essay on Prudence, completely off topic, that one of the reasons the world and people move so fast and are buzzing and bouncing around hypermetabolically (living fast, bling bling) can be best explained by "In skating over thin ice, our safety is in our speed." Indeed our culture is on thin ice. Individuals need to find a solid balance, their core, if they can with social pressures and monetary needs and greed and misinformation. Self-prudence is on my poltical agenda. "Human Nature loves no contradictions, but is symetrical."

I am leaving now, for how long; unseen. God bless.

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